What ARE you doing this fall Erin??????

The Answer:

Take a Seat everyone....


I'm staying in BC and going to school in Courtenay and taking Esthetics!

I haven't told even Sarah or Megan Yet.... I'm sorry girls! I just got accepted today....

I'm scared...

Really freakin scared...

Life is Scary...

I need my friends....

I miss you...

But Life is also great and full of opportunity. I have had a rollercoaster of a day. I found out I was accept and My boss is thrilled and wants me to work still on Saturdays and all that Jazz is great and I start school on November 1st. BUT....Holy crap...I miss my friends! I'm freaking out! I'm out here indefinately!! And who knows when I'll come home or ever see anyone ever again. Also I have just been really REALLy discouraged spiritually lately so could you all pray that things will settle in me! I'm soo nervouse and yet you all know I love the thrill of an adventure. I really am stuck in a conflict or mixed feelings. Overjoyed Vs. Deep saddness.

totally pointless update that you are ALL going to read!

So I'm on my last week of work until I head to Saskatoon for Christine and Glen's wedding. Wow. Life is so crazy. I am still working at the Spa. And getting burnt from the sun out here. I serisously think that the sun just is hotter out here because I burn in like an hour here! It's retarded. I miss everyone. I talk to Sarah the other night like forever. I miss her. She is sucha funny girl who can pretty much read my mind most of the time. Um...I've hanging out with my Aunt a lot lately. Just Cuz. I don't know why but I like to hang out with my Family a lot lately. It's a phase I think. I'm like a naturalist too. It'll pass. I'm not hardcore...just like eating and make-up and stuff. and being healthy sort of. I'm going to be doing yoga a soon as aI get back from my little vacation. Hmmm. I'm doing a lot better health -wise. I'm taking crazy medication and feeling a lot better. So that's AWESOME. really. My hair has grown a lot... and um...I'm buying new sandles this weekend. Haha....it's so chill on the island I'm sorry I have no stories thig week. Try me next week. Bye

FINALLY!! a NEW post...I have an excuse though...

Finally A New Post Current mood: bored
Hi Everyone! I'm sorry I haven't posted a blog in like forever! I had no internet for like 3 weeks!! I moved into town with my Auntie and things are going great. I have this incredible room with the most comfy bed ever!! I'm workin Wed-Sat at the Spa and I love it. My boss and co-workers are soo awesome. I live across the street from one of them. She is the nicest lady ever from India!! Um...I went surfing last monday!! And...I sucked!! haha...I'll have to try again! My friend Brian took me. After sucking for a few hours we climbed this huge rock island and then later we got stuck in a riptide and almost had to get rescued by the cute baywatch man. Instead he yelled at us and made us read the signs that said "NO CLIMBING THE BIG ROCK ISLAND!!"....or something like that...Idunno... Haha...it was a funny day. So...working at the Spa naturally my eyes have been opened to all the imperfections we have...haha just joking....But I did get a spray tan. Apparently I am their favorite guinie pig for new stuff....So...it's fun. I think I'm getting this new facial this week. Other news...I got sick a little bit. I ended up in the ER on account of the Crohn's again. They shot me up with some pain meds and sent me home. I'm starting some new meds soon so hopefully that will help. And Brian has been faithful with Sprite slurpies and bringing me stuff to do. I think we going to watch the entire star wars trilogy tomorrow...how exciting...NOT! No serisously...there's nothing going on between us... (Promise)...I just only have ONE friend... I miss everyone lots. I talk to Ang and Sophia. They're awesome. Talk to everyone soon. My new number is 250-926-0470....

Invisible...

Today was probably my most boring day yet since I've been here. The highlight of my Day was when my new Medic Alert bracelet showed up in the mail. Yeah...my mom is making me wear it now...figures, I am one very sick little girl. I woke up at noon again today. until tomorrow I have no reason to get up any earlier. I watched TV all day while watching my Cousin's baby. Babies stink. literally. I don't know if I am ever going to be ready to have kids. Ryann always smells like sour milk because she constantly spits up after eating. It's gross. And Sometimes Avery forgets to wipe after going potty, and that's pretty gross too. I'm so thankful that Kerri and Adrian having taken me in here but honestly I am glad that I am moving into town and with my Auntie who is potty trained. So, tonight Adrian, Avery and I went to the Baptist church to watch the Christian school's play called "out of the blue". I was thoroughly disappointed. Not trying to be judgemental here people. It was decent for what it was...being a original writing by one of the local church members...including the very ambitious musical interludes that seemed to completely drown the play. It was two hours long with one 1o minute intercession. The story was supposed to be about Jesus coming to a modern day city instead of being born 2000 years ago. There were a few humorous parables that I offered a subtle laugh... But at least everyone got to have a musical solo right? I kinda felt like I was watchin American Idol. I heard a verbrato (spelling) once through the night... that was exciting. I would never EVER want to bring an unsaved friend to a program like that. I even felt like leaving the religious scene after this. Moving on... Tomorrow I start my new job as a Nail Technician at Eden street spa. I am worried. Not for starting a new job...or having to do complete strangers nails...but for my identity. I am torn. I don't identify with beauty parlor types... And I don't know why I like to do nails... But I do. I afraid that working here is going to cause me to conform to societies need for beauty. It's not even that I need someone shoving products down my throat. I do it to myself. I just look around and constantly compare. I like to pretend that I have a huge confidence in myself and I do to some degree but I am still a girl living in 2005. There are so many pressures to be perfect. I have noticed my new obession with weighing myself. In my bathroom here is this incredibly high tech scale that even measures you body hydration and junk like that. I found myself weighing myself pretty much every time I went to the bathroom. It's retarded. So tomorrow I assume I'll wake up and put on make-up (even though I never wear it any other time). I'll put on my black pants and shoes...pull my hair out of my face, go to my auntie's mini van that I'm driving and blast something hard, its doesn't matter what...just something hard. I'll drive along the ocean to work and my mind will be set in a pattern of constant contemplation about who I am.

This is my work's website

www.edenstreetspa.com Go check it out everyone, it's so beautiful. You can view a tour of it too...

I got a Job!!

Today at 10:30 I met with the owner of Eden Street Spa for a Job interview and I was going to do her nails kinda as a test trial. I totally nailed it! She was in love with my work and She offered me a job before I was even finished. So I'll be working full time as a Nail Tech. Also they want to to train me to do all the manicures and pedicures and stuff and I will also do reception work. I'm so super excited because so far everything that they have offered me is exactly what I wanted. I know none of you will really understand what I mean by this stuff but just know that it is awesome. I will be getting paid hourly AND commission! They are also going to pay for all the product I use and do all my booking and everything! So its all a win/win situation. They are going to put an ad in the newspaper here with my picture on it! And oh...Did it mention that is the most beautiful spa EVER! Its two-stories and absolutely gorgeous inside and out. The people working there are awesome too! I'll be working on the bottom floor. There are four hair-dressers and so many rooms where you can get massages, waxes, body treatments, manicures/pedicures...EVERYTHING. So, Thank you all who were praying for me to get a good job. Your prayers totally came through for me on this one.

Second Monday on the Island

So Today started with Luke poking his head through my door hoping that I would still be sleeping so he could wake me up by jumping on my head or something. We ate some Eggos and then I drove him to Courtenay when We say good-bye at this old school train station. It was really good having him hear. The drive home, which was 35 minutes, took way longer on the way back. I just sat there listening to Armor for Sleep in my Auntie's white mini van thinking about how much my life has changed in four incredibly long weeks. I really missed the CPC crew today. especially Megan and Sarah. I can't believe that I am actually doing so well without them. We were seriously connected at the hip bone this last 8 months... until they got boy-friends...Grrr...Joke. Anyway. I also really miss the Lloyd crew...especially Ang, Sophia, and Carla. We were just started to have some real fun when I moved 21 hours away. I really do have amazing friends all over the place. I miss my family. My brother Tim is moving home to Lloyd...something that I have wanted ever since he moved when I was 14. I have friends that are dealing with crap...like death and break-ups and I wish I could do more do be supportive. So basically I am feeling homesick today. really really homesick. For Lloyd and Saskatoon.
Moving on. Today turned out to pretty awesome. I'll tell you why...right...n-now. Tonight I did my first Jr.youth at Campbell River Baptist Church. It is being lead by my friend Brian Miller. He's a crazy adrenaline junky man. We played british bull-dog and water balloon samauri. I didn't get wet though. As I was driving into town I was a little nervous. I only knew Brian. I didn't know how many leaders or kids would be there. I kept coming back to the words spoken to my by pastor lyle and laura when I was on Team Canada. "Just go all out. be the best you can possibly be. Offer everything you have. Just do it!" So I tried to think positive. I am really not here to be the coolest leader or anything. I am really hear t be a youth sponsor. And, even though there is only one month of offical Jr.Youth left, maybe I can make an impact on these kids lives. Well...I'm not going to tell you that some amazing great opportuniy came up and I shared Jesus with a Youth. All that really happened was that I had a lot of fun. And I met a few more people my age. We were running around a lot and I just tried to give it all the energy I had. And I think the kids are really awesome too. Next week we'll have small groups and I'll get to know the kids some more, but for now it was a great ice breaker. It was some comfort knowing that this was Brian's first time as the intern pastor too. So on the way home I took a detour and drove past my auntie's house that I will be living in in a few weeks. I drove around town a bit and took a few pics because it was raining and so beautiful. After I got home, I went for a bike ride. (Oh yeah I got a new bike! I love it! I've used it almost every day since I've got it!) I biked down to the ocean and just walked along the Rocks as the the tide was coming in. I was trying to get as close to the waves as I could without getting wet. I was listening to my music and just taking in all in. The ocean smells like chips. I think I've mentioned that. I didn't like it at firs but I am starting to like it. Depending on where you are it smells like pine or fish or chips or flowers. Whatever it is...everything is very rich here. I took the long way home on my bike through some trees and it was just so beautiful and peaceful. Its cool because the roads are so bendy here the only way you know that there is a car coming (especially with the tunes pumping) is when you see some dim relfections off the trees.
So nothing really happened today that was REALLY worth blogging about but I did find it to be a wonderful day. Even though I am battling with my thoughts a lot. Also...I feel sick. I feel like I need to puke or something... (Don't elaborate). Oh and the good news is I am getting tanned because I've been outside a lot. I'm sure I'll have a wicked farmer's tan for Christine and Glen's wedding.

Hey everyone! Wow What an amazing weekend I have had. Luke came up from Camp Imadene. I picked him up in courtney and thenwe came back to campbell river, its only about 35 minutes away. Ok...So on friday night My friend Brian had us over to watch the movie "Life Aqautic"...it was totally retarded but definately had its funny moments....totally random.... Anyways...it took us like an hour to find brians house because we weren't exactly listening to directions I guess and the roads here are all windly and hilly and crazy names so we took sooo long to find it. But we did eventually. It was fun. And then we just drove around...like Luke and I do...just checkung stuff out and what not. THEN...the next day Luke woke me up Bright and Early!! at like 9:30...but I'm serisously used to sleeping like all day right now. And we just chilled at my house. Then we went CLIFF DIVING with Brian! It was sooo wicked. Well, actually first we went to Elk Falls, which is like a 130 ft waterfall in this huge canyon! It was amazing! I loved it! Ok...back to cliff diving. Both luke and I figure it would be this place that you kinda drive up to and then jump off. Well...we hiked like 10 minutes down this mountain and then we found this pool of water that was actually just further fown the river from Elk Falls. Then to jump off the cliff you have to rock climb up to it! It was awesome! I got so scared at this one point because my foot slipped and I thought I would fall. But It didn't. Luke and I both jumped off like 20 ft cliffs which is nothing really, but it was our first time. Brian jumped off a spot that was like 50 ft! He's a hardcore though! He does everything! Surfs, skates, cliff jumps, long-boards....etc. And he plays guitar and bass and everything. He's awesome. So...the water we were jumping into was pumping right from the mountain so it was super cold...but it was a huge rush jumping into it! I was great. Then, When we were too cold to jump anymore we crossed a bunch of rapids in to river...not huge ones but definately enough to carry you down... and went to some huge flat rocks in the middle of the river. There we just tanned and chilled for like an hour. afterwards we went home and compared sunburns... I won! THen last night...after watching "bringing down te house"...Luke and I went down to the harbor and got some icecream and watch FOUR huge cruise chips pass by in the night. It was sooo awesome. Today, after church we took a boat taxi over the Quadra Island and had lunch at April point. And now... I'm blogging and Luke is lying on the floor playing with the blinds like a cat! He goes home tomorrow on the train...Who knows what we'll do tonight. Oh! on Saturday before we went cliff diving we went for a bike ride ... 5 blocks down to the ocean...and swam around and took for crap in the ocean. it was fun.